Life and Deaths

Sigh

It has been a long time since I wrote in any of my blog.

Of course the whole world knows about the deasth of Cory Aquino already. I was awake that Saturday because of stomach flu so I found out about it. I cried.

Then, last Tuesday, I heard about the death of my student Jessie. His mom dropped by the school to tell us about the death of his son.

It was so sudden. The boy was smart, friendly and good looking. He had his whole life ahead of him. He was so young.

I remember him sitting always in the front row, at the aisle so how can I forget him?

He volunteered to do a report one time at school. And when he was sick on the day of an exam, he texted me to apologize that he could not make it. And when he wsent back to school after getting well, he took the exam eventhough he was still weak.

Awwww. I would like to think that I made an impact to him.

I pray for his peaceful repose.

The Merry Month of May

May has always been the busiest month for me. Just recently, I just finished directing Sta. Lucia East Grand Mall's Search for Little Stars (Semis) and Search for Mrs. Sta. Lucia.

So I was stressed for the past week, what with the direction, choreography, dancers, contestants, budget (!!!!!) and at the same time account management for corporate accounts.

Geeeeez, last Saturday during Little Stars, I'm freaking. I have a fever. As soon as I got home, I fell into an exhaustive sleep only to wake up earloy for another event (Mother's Day!).

I have three Mother's Day event at three malls. Geeesh. Sa pagmamadali ko, naiwan ko pa cellphone ko (is it a sign na bumili na ako ng new phone????).

The whole morning during the dry run (galing ng mga mommy, sumayaw for the opening number, mas magaling ako, napasayaw ko sila he he he) panic mode ako kasi syempre clients are calling my cellphone eh di ko naman dala. Naihabol din naman kaya wala namang sumablay sa mga events.

I was so tired but fulfilled. My clients are satisfied and happy. I will be happy as soon as I collected he he he.

Another event to prepare for, the Grand Finals of Little Stars so I will relax this week for a little bit and regain my equilibrium.

Come June, Father's Day events. Ooooh, I am so happy to be busy.

Easter Sunday

This Holy Week, I'm supposed to reflect about what's happening in my life, what direction I am going to take but I was distracted with lots of things... plus later today, I have three simultaneous events... geeh, I just hope everything will go all right with the other two events I am not overseeing...

First Quarter of 2009

The first quarter of this year has come and gone, what have I accomplished so far?

I have been drifting, still unsure of what I would like to become... seems like time is running out but I am unrushed, unconcerned.

Why Do I Blog?

My blog. Geeesh. Why do I post everything on my blog? Even the most embarassing and painful things?

Why not?

Well for one, I never really know that there would be other people reading my blog. This is for me, my personal journal. But since there are other people who took the time to read my blog and react (even vioently sometimes) so I guess I have to explain why I post what I post.

My blog is my blog. I can post whatever I want.

Someone said I should take responsibility with the things I write. Hey, I always DO. If anybody is offended with any of my postings, you are FREE not to read my blog. Gosh, I am not forcing you to read it.

Now, if you think you are misrepresented in any of my blogs, it's not my fault. My blog is a reflection of how certain people treated me. If you treat me nice, then I'll be all praises but if you do something out of the blue, then do not expect my respect in return.

There are people who spout words such as "respect" etc. but I wonder, do they really know what they are saying?

I blog because I have been USED and it is only now that I can express what I feel. Why suppress my feelings? My emotions are valid. If you are offended by what I have expressed, write your own blog and attack me there. Geeesh.

I am a legitimate, feeling individual.

Violent reactions are welcome because I don't really care. I just realized, why would I care? I care for my feelings, for myself before I care for you.

Selfish?

Not really. I have sacrificed and given other people priority over me. It's time I take care of myself coz no other will be.

Eli of the Eraser Heads

Just thought of sharing this pic with Eli Buendia when he was still with Eraserheads circa 1999 - shucks, another decade. Look how skinny I was!

Francis M & I

Yup, I know him but I doubt if he remembers me. I met him 10 years ago, in Awit Awards. So long ago.

There is one thing we have in common, together with Kuya Germs and Alicia Silverstone; we all share October 4 as our birthday. I always thought and dreamed that I will be the next famous person born on October 4.

Sigh. And now I only share my birthday with Kuya Germs and of course Alicia Silverstone.

Ei Francis M., thanks for taking a picture with me when I was just a newbie in the corporate world. Rest in peace. You have been a great man.

Peace.

Status: Single Age: 32

While many eskew writing their status online, I can only surmise that the online community is still the place to be who you want to be. Discerning the honest from the scrupolous is an ardous task so what the heck.

Another blank on the profile is the age. If not blank, some certainly are false. Heck, what's wrong with admitting your real age? Is it an embarassment that the years you leave off is worthless?
Me, I am 32 and I am proud of it. The past 32 years have been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs and like plunging down from the peak of the tallest curve or the adrenalin rush of headlong loop, oh gee, I can always throw up.

Pics with Celebs

Just unearthed some pics ...

February ushers in

I so hate myself.

January has come and gone and I didn't make a mark at all. Still, January made an impact to me. I think and I believe with what has transpired to me last month has changed me for the better.

I owe many people my appreciation and thanks for inspiring me to be a better person.

The end of January has also been full of sacrifices. It was my mother,s 60th b-day but we really weren't able to celebrate it as my father was in surgery. I was left at home to take care of my nephews and whew! It is so hard to be a "parent"!

Hope February will bring all the love I deserve he he he.

Kung Hei Fat Choi

2009 Chinese Horoscope for people born in Dragon years: 1904, 1916, 1928, 1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000.

If your birthday is before February 4, then your astrological sign is Rabbit, not Dragon. (Verify Your Sign)

Dragon people had more good news than bad news in 2008, year of Rat. But the fortune of Dragon people in 2009 will be slide down a little bit. Dragon people will have a better health than last year. But the career luck and money luck won't be that good comparing with 2008. This is because that many Unlucky Stars appear in the same time and those Unlucky Stars bring obstacles and suppress morale on Dragon people. Fortunately, there is a Lucky Moon Star coming this year. That means someone will appear to help and support you when you are in big trouble. Thus, you have a chance to take a break while fighting against adversity.

Career: You had the Lucky Moon Star showing in career area in 2008. You could get the support from a female mentor and you could have the chance to show you talent on your job position. However, it will be different in 2009. The coming Unlucky Stars will block your career opportunity. Your job performance won't reach your goal. The your characteristics will become passive and negative. The bad reputation and dispute will come next. You need great energy, strong determination and persisting patience to get out the predicament in the year of Cow.

Money: The Lucky Moon Star should be a good sign for you money luck. But your wealth will increase or not, depending on the progress of your career or business. Since the career luck is tough this year, therefore the money luck will be limited. Another Unlucky Star is found in money area. That means you have a opportunity to earn more money, but you still have a good chance to suffer money loss. In short, your money luck in 2009 is that money comes and money goes. Since the money luck is unstable. You shouldn't try any gambling to wish wining more by a small investment. This dream won't happen in 2009.

Love: Your love fortune will be about the same to year 2008. The good news is the Lonely Star doesn't appear in 2009 anymore. If you are married, then you will spend more time with your spouse. Both of your hearts will get even closer. You should be able to maintain a happy marriage. If you are in love, your dating time will increase. You and your lover will get along well and the love relationship will be stronger and closer. You will feel harmony, happiness, sweet and warm all the time. If you are single, then you might be lonely for a while, since there is no strong love sign coming.

Health: Basically, there is no major health problem for Dragon people in 2009. You will have a safe and healthy Cow year. However, the seniors still have to pay attention in September and December. If they get sick during that time, they need more time to recover. If the young people don't not have enough sleeping at night, then they will have trouble to concentrate during the day, which will affect their performance at work. If they keep living this way, their health will deteriorate in the second half of the year.

Fortune: The luck of Dragon people in the year of Cow is not that great, but it's still fine. Although, Dragon people will encounter more trouble in career area. But they still have a helper or supporter around to protect them. As long as you focus on your job duty, make sure to deliver your task completely, avoid the argument with people, spend more time with your mentors, then your career should be fine in 2009. There is a money loss sign this year. You shouldn't expect any good money return from the investment. If you are not greedy and won't gamble, then you should be able to balance your budget in the year of the Cow.

60 lbs to go

Mmmm, I started yesterday my road to healthy toning of my body. I firmly believe that I am not fat, I just have a big belly. So, I don't really need to diet but basically start doing some exercise.

Finally, the exerciser I bought five years ago will get use. I started yesterday by being on it for 5 minutes (ei, better to start slow than kill myself!), today, I did 15 minutes. Not bad. At the end of the week, I plan to stay on it from 30 minutes to an hour.

So what did I do to force myself on the exerciser? I put it infront of the TV he he he. So while I'm pushing, at least I'm not bored.

I really need to increase my stamina. I have been going up and down overpass bridges on my way to LRT, on my way to school and I want it to be effortless. I don't want to be breathless everytime.

And I hope the aches in my joint will be gone as I build up my stamina.

Grin.

More Pics

Other pics in Baguio...

Baguio Experience

I will never, ever go to Baguio during holidays. Too much traffic!

Back To Reality

Ugh.

That's the only word I can come up with to express my getting back to work mode is. UGH!

New Year Pics

and that is why I am at my highest weight - 198 lbs! I cooked the tuna spaghetti myself.

New Year, New Goals

It's 2009.

Thank you 2008. I have learned so much and became a better person last year. But somehow, I still feel incomplete. Looking at my picture on the right (in my profile), I kept thinking, where did this person went? The person at the bottom pic is entirely different!

I have never smiled nor looked that good in picture for the past five years. Damn, I missed that Rob.

So everything will change (again!) as I resolved to change myself this year.

I titled my blog "198 lbs." because that's my weight after all the holiday binge. Golly, just 2 pounds shy from 200 lbs.

I pray that as I sit infront of my laptop a year from now, I will change again the title of my blog to something...

So, my goals for this year? LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT!

That's it.

I will not obsess in love, work or anything else but on losing weight. I'm not getting any younger...

I guess that's the first thing - acknowledge that I do need to lose weight.

There. That's my number 1 priority, all else is second to that.

It's Christmas My Way

I missed the Christmas when I was a small kid. I remember that my parents would take us to go to our godparents and after, before going home, buy us some toys at SM. I distinctly remember three toys that stood out in my memory. I wonder if these toys are still somewhere in our bodega (wish ko lang he he he). The first one is a panda on a swing. I thought it was a black and white teddy bear, I didn't know that it was called a panda. The second one is a toy car driven by a dog, you wind up its wheel so it would run. And the third one is a transforming robot. Geez, that's how old transformers were.

When we move here in Cainta, I don't remember any new toys. Maybe because I was growing old or times were hard or my godparents were not around anymore. Be that as it may, Christmas has been vastly different when I started working. Instead of being a receiver of gifts, I became a giver. And it feels good. Thank you Lord that I am able to give.

Below is the edited Christmas tree I made from our old tree and my nephew JM enjoying opening gifts...

'Tis the season to be jolly

I am so happy today.

Mas masarap pala magbigay noh?

Thank You Po

Lord,

I am very very thankful for all the blessings you have showered me and my family. This year has been very good to us, as all the past years.

I am thankful for my family who has always been there for each other. We may not seem close to each other but in truth, we are closer than we look. That is how we show our love - despite the fact that we don't really say it, but Lord, I would never exchange my parents, brothers and sister, ever.

As we celebrate Christmas, hindi man po kami sama-sama, lubos pa rin po ako nagpapasalamat at unti-unti pong natutupad mga pangarap namin.

Salamat po talaga.