This December, two of my remaining credit cards will be paid in full. FINALLY. I am so proud, I did it on my own. ON MY OWN! Nabayaran ko yung mga utang na hindi naman ako ang nakinabang. Katangahan ko lang kasi, sa akin nakapangalan ang credit card.
At yung gumamit, ni ha ni ho, ni singkong duling, walang hinulog sa credit card ko. Letch! Makarma ka na sana. Bwahahahaha. Hindi ako bitter. Nabwibwiset lang ako at sa loob ng dalawang taon, ako ang nagdusa. Well, I learned my lesson at hindi na ako magpapagamit sa mga USER!
I have two remaing cards left pa, pero it's a big relief na dalawa na lang sila. From eight credit cards, to four, to two until zero -- debt freedom, here I come.
Now I can really start a new. Target date, JULY 2010. July 4, 2010 sana para Independence Day sa US.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Whatever will be, will be...
Friday, December 18, 2009
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Integrity
if there is one thing I am proud of, I am proud of how I got where I am today without using and hurting other people. Upon reflection, I made it where I am today because of my own effort and skill, my talent and just being who I am. At the end of the day, I thank God for giving me the integrity and the confidence that I can look anybody in the eye and be proud of who I am and what I have accomplished.
I always dream. I set myself a vision in life, of who I will be in the future. I did this when I was even in grade school. I set myself goals.
When I was in a public school in elementary, my goal was to enter a private high school, which I can only do if I become the valedictorian in our class. And I was the valedictorian.
When I was in high school, told myself, it's either UP or no school at all, leaving myself with no other alternative but UP. So I did study in UP.
In college, I told myself, I would graduate cum laude. I did.
After college, my goals include landing a job in an established company. I did. I worked for Star Cinema/ ABS-CBN for two years.
Another goal was to get published, have my name at the byline and I did - I was a managing editor at Design and Architecture Magazine, I have published articles and short stories at Star Studio Magazine, Image Magazine and even online with two children's story at lessons.ph.
After several corporate experiences, I stopped having goals. I just went with the flow. Someone encouraged me to partner in a business, and I did. I tried teaching, my childhood dream, I am teaching right now.
Now, it's time for me to dream again, set my goals, have a vision.
I am tired (not physically but emotionally and mentally tired) of "thinking". My line of work now exhaust my creative juices, leaving me no time (or inspiration) to be inspired to write. I have been thinking, it would be nice to have a desk job outside Metro Manila, just to get out of the city.
Who knows, in the very near future, I will be able to do that.
I always dream. I set myself a vision in life, of who I will be in the future. I did this when I was even in grade school. I set myself goals.
When I was in a public school in elementary, my goal was to enter a private high school, which I can only do if I become the valedictorian in our class. And I was the valedictorian.
When I was in high school, told myself, it's either UP or no school at all, leaving myself with no other alternative but UP. So I did study in UP.
In college, I told myself, I would graduate cum laude. I did.
After college, my goals include landing a job in an established company. I did. I worked for Star Cinema/ ABS-CBN for two years.
Another goal was to get published, have my name at the byline and I did - I was a managing editor at Design and Architecture Magazine, I have published articles and short stories at Star Studio Magazine, Image Magazine and even online with two children's story at lessons.ph.
After several corporate experiences, I stopped having goals. I just went with the flow. Someone encouraged me to partner in a business, and I did. I tried teaching, my childhood dream, I am teaching right now.
Now, it's time for me to dream again, set my goals, have a vision.
I am tired (not physically but emotionally and mentally tired) of "thinking". My line of work now exhaust my creative juices, leaving me no time (or inspiration) to be inspired to write. I have been thinking, it would be nice to have a desk job outside Metro Manila, just to get out of the city.
Who knows, in the very near future, I will be able to do that.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Faith and My Family
To be quite frank, I am not well-off this month. My budget is so stretched to the limit, but still, I am quite happy.
I am happy that I have a job that I like. I am happy that I do things that I like.
Despite the fact that since last August, I have been making ends meet. Since my food business went bust and my business partners left me to shoulder all the loans incurred, every month I have to pay debts totaling more than 10,000.00. Can you imagine that? My salary as a professor is way below that, plus my monthly household expenses, plus bills, plus the allowance I give to my parents, plus my daily transportation and food expenses - so how do I make ends meet? Faith.
I cannot blame my ex-partners for leaving me in a ditch. If they don't want to help me pay, that is fine with me. It hurts me that I invested in putting up the business and when it failed, I was the only one left to shoulder everything. I wonder if it's the other way around - what if the business boomed, will I still be alone? I don't think so.
But that is neither here and now. Reality is, I am alone with mountains of debts and I have to shoulder it. Alone.
I remember a year ago that five to eight credit card companies kept on calling my cellphone, our landline. My mother was so bothered about it. Demand letters from legal etc. It was really dreadful.
It hurts because no one helped me. The people I trusted where nowhere to be found.
Thank God for my family. Faith.
Whenever I am beset with these financial problems, I kneel down and pray, "Lord, please help me. With your guidance, this too shall pass. I know Lord that You have a plan for me and you will never forsake me."
After two years, yes, the Lord has not forsaken me. My financial problems, though far from over, asre on a good financial standing. Out of the eight credit cards, I have already settled four and another two nearing completion this December and the last two on May and June 2010. Thank you Lord.
My family has always been there. If I need to advance some cash to make "abono" for my events, they are there. I don't think I can ever survive and be sane without them. Nawala na ang lahat sa akin, iniwan na ako ng lahat, pero ang family ko, andyan pa rin.
In my life, I can count the angels in my life. Not including my family, I can count on my fingers the genuine people who helped me get through with my difficulty. They didn't know about it. But I guess they feel that I need them, and I have known them more than five years. I guess the true test of friendship is not on how many gatherings we have been together but on how many times we have lent a hand. I believe these people know who they are. These people did not give me money, they ghave me projects to work on. I guess I wouldn't feel achieving financial freedom if the money came from dole-outs. Thank you people, you have enriched my life and made it possible for me to take off the shackles of perpetual debt.
Just rambling...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Choices
Ang tagal ko ng hindi nagsusulat sa blog. I think I am the writer na tamad magsulat. I have been kidding myself. Oo nga writer nga ako, pero 10 years ago na yata yung huling short story ko na napublish. Since then, I have never been inspired to write. Commercially, yeah, naprapractice ko pa rin ang craft ko sa paggawa ng press releases for clients, reports etc. Pero literary? Zero pa rin.
Nangarap ako noon na makita ang pangalan ko sa byline - natupad naman. Ilang mga short story and poems ko ang napublish. Pero ang tagal na noon.
Gusto ko magsulat ng nobela pero wala pa ako o tamad ako o ayaw ko.
Ewan ko ba.
Ngayon nga, may mga pangyayari sa buhay ko na nagpabago sa lahat. Katatapos lang ng kaarawan ko noong isang buwan. Kung pwede nga lang ba kasama sa mga innod ng baha ang lahat ng mga hindi magagandang pangyayari sa buhay ko. Sana, nagsisimula ulit ako. Yun bang maging 20 years old ulit. O kaya ulitin ko yung high school life ko.
Ang dami-dami kong mga desisyon na dapat hindi ko ginawa o mga katanungang ngayon ay bumabgabg sa akin - what if iba ang choice ko? Ano na kaya ako ngayon?
Bigat.
Sa estado ng buhay ko ngayon, wala naman ako pinagsisisihan. Sabi ko nga, I am content. Sa totoo lang, wala na naman ako hinahangad na iba para sa sarili ko. Wala na akong gustong mangyari - which is parang hindi na mganda. Kasi kung walang goals, walang point na magstrive at mabuhay.
Nung elementary, high school and college, ang goal lang eh makatapos. Bonus na lang pag naging honor student. While working, ang goal ay makakuha ng trabaho to be financially independent, pero pagkatapos magpaalila sa corporate world, eh di naman yata sapat na patayin ko ang sarili ko kapalit ang pera.
Buti na lang hindi ako magastos na tao, hindi ako what's the term? Hindi ako high maintenance. Sus, when I quit working for companies and decided to work for muyself, katakot-takot na hirap ang dinanas at na-experience ko.
Pero kung titimbangin, saan ba ako mas naging masaya?
Looking back, feeling ko para akong isang dahon na nalaglag sa ilog o bangkang papel na sumusunod lamang sa agos ng tubig.
Minsan, gusto ko murahin ang sarili ko. Wala ba akong buto para gawin ang mga bagay na gusto ko talaga? Kaso ang nakakatawa, hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam kung ano talaga ang gusto ko.
Yan ang hirap sa tumatanda eh, baka napaglipasan ko na yung pangarap ko.
Echos!
Thursday, October 08, 2009
My Gift
This is my gift to myself and to my family. Her name is Suzy. She is a Shih Tzu. You can see her other pictures at my facebook account - robrobe@yahoo.com. Having her is like having a baby. But most importantly, she takes the stress off me.
Ondoy's Birthday Gift To Me
Last October 4 was my birthday, but I didn't really get to celebrate it. The past weeks, and up until now, the news is all about Ondoy and the flood. I never realized and I never dreamed that I will be part of the news, a newsworthy but worrying news.
You see, where I live was devastated by the flood Ondoy caused.
It was a rainy Saturday, my nephew JM was with me. The street started flooding, but that was normal. Our street always flood, but it never rises and never entered our compound as our houses are a little bit higher than the street.
The rain never stopped and it was already creeping up. The flood started rising and rising until it entered our houses. We never thought it would rise up to more than a couple of inches so what we just did was put everythingn on a higher place like making sure the TV was on top of the dining room table.
The water just kept on rising until finally it was waist level. There was only me and my nephew and I have to take all my office files and other appliances to the 2nd floor. By the time I was done, the flood was chest deep and all my clothes and books at my parents house was already submerged.
Saturday ended badly. Blackout. I was only able to save water and food that was in the fridge. The refrigerator and sofa were already floating at the 1st floor. All other appliances were submerged at our other house. By midnight, the flood was already "lampas tao".
Ondoy left Saturday but the flood never left that Sunday. It was still too high. We could not go out. By that time, my other nephew Romel was with me already, but was having a complication. He was having an asthma attack! Since there was no electricity, he could not nebulize. He had no inhaler. He thought he was dying. I thought so too. None of us could go out as the water was like rapids.
I told Romel's father at the other house to do something but he didn't budge. Fortunately, my office assistant swam to our house to take Romel out of the house and to a hospital. We had an inflatable chair (JM's toy) but no air pump so my staff, James, manually inflated the chair. This they use to be able to float and navigate the flood.
I could never show panic, I had my nephew with me. Fortunately, he never saw the experience as traumatic. He never cried. We prayed. I invented games to keep my nephew occupied.
The only food we were able to eat for two days while we were stranded was ensaymada. That was it. For two days, there were no rice, no hot water for coffee.
Monday, the flood receded. I was finally able to go down the house and out to the streets. Our house (my parents house)was all in mud. All my clothes, books, papers are in mud.
But thank God my family and I survived this disaster.
If there is one thing I learned during this experience, it was to value life and learn to let go of material possessions.
You see, where I live was devastated by the flood Ondoy caused.
It was a rainy Saturday, my nephew JM was with me. The street started flooding, but that was normal. Our street always flood, but it never rises and never entered our compound as our houses are a little bit higher than the street.
The rain never stopped and it was already creeping up. The flood started rising and rising until it entered our houses. We never thought it would rise up to more than a couple of inches so what we just did was put everythingn on a higher place like making sure the TV was on top of the dining room table.
The water just kept on rising until finally it was waist level. There was only me and my nephew and I have to take all my office files and other appliances to the 2nd floor. By the time I was done, the flood was chest deep and all my clothes and books at my parents house was already submerged.
Saturday ended badly. Blackout. I was only able to save water and food that was in the fridge. The refrigerator and sofa were already floating at the 1st floor. All other appliances were submerged at our other house. By midnight, the flood was already "lampas tao".
Ondoy left Saturday but the flood never left that Sunday. It was still too high. We could not go out. By that time, my other nephew Romel was with me already, but was having a complication. He was having an asthma attack! Since there was no electricity, he could not nebulize. He had no inhaler. He thought he was dying. I thought so too. None of us could go out as the water was like rapids.
I told Romel's father at the other house to do something but he didn't budge. Fortunately, my office assistant swam to our house to take Romel out of the house and to a hospital. We had an inflatable chair (JM's toy) but no air pump so my staff, James, manually inflated the chair. This they use to be able to float and navigate the flood.
I could never show panic, I had my nephew with me. Fortunately, he never saw the experience as traumatic. He never cried. We prayed. I invented games to keep my nephew occupied.
The only food we were able to eat for two days while we were stranded was ensaymada. That was it. For two days, there were no rice, no hot water for coffee.
Monday, the flood receded. I was finally able to go down the house and out to the streets. Our house (my parents house)was all in mud. All my clothes, books, papers are in mud.
But thank God my family and I survived this disaster.
If there is one thing I learned during this experience, it was to value life and learn to let go of material possessions.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
LRT Ride Chapter 2
101 days before Christmas! Grabe, Pasko na naman. Parang katatapos lang ng Mahal na Araw at hindi ko na naman namalayan na Pasko na.
Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o malulungkot. Eto na naman ako, pasakay ng lrt. Papasok sa school, hindi para mag-aral kung hindi para magturo. Tumatanda na ako. Bakit nga ba sa dinarami-daming propesyon, pagtuturo pa napili ko. Cum laude naman ako. He he he, nakakapagod din naman kasi magtrabaho sa opisina. Sampung taon ang ginugol ko na may boss, may amo at pinapagyaman ang iba't-ibang kumpanya, saka ko narealize, oh God I hate this life.
I have always wanted to teach. Yun nga lang hindi ako nag-education kasi sabi nga, wala daw yumaman na titser. Ewan ko lang, para kasing marami akong gusto ishare sa mga kabataan. Para kasi nuong estudyante ako, maraming mga maling ituro.
Gusto kong sabihin sa mga estudyante na, hey guys, enjoy being a student while it lasts. Habang binibigyan pa kayo ng allowance ng mga magulang nyo, ienjoy nyo dahil sa real world, kung kayo na bumubuhay sa sarili mo, ikaw na talaga bahala sa buhay mo.
Hindi na pwede kumopya sa katabi pag may pinagawang memo sa yo o di kaya ay magpagawa ng report sa Recto.
Oooooops. Biglang huminto ang tren sa pagitan ng Santolan at Katipunan. Nabasag pagmumuni-muni ko ng isang ale na nagtatatalak.
'Bastos ka! Kanina ka pa nanunulak!'
Kawawa naman yung mamang inaaway nung ale. Eto namang ale, walang patumanggang tumalak eh. Sino ba inaaway nito? Hala, ang co-teacher ko pala na hindi ko masyado kakclose. Si Prof. Bahandi. Tsk tsk, ang hirap talaga pag rush hour. Kawawa naman si Mark, sigurado ako hiyang-hiya na eto sa pinagsasabi ng ale.
Hindi ako makapagpigil, 'Ang ingay-ingay naman! Kung nasisikipan kayo, magtaxi na lang kayo!' sabi ko. Malakas ang loob ko kasi nakaupo ako at hindi ako nakikita ng nagwawalang ale.
Alam ko nabosesan ako ni Mark. Kawawa naman kasi si Mark eh, mas naaawa ako sa mga estudyante niya at baka mapagbalingan nya ngayong araw na ito ng kanyang pagkabadtrip sa ale.
Hindi katulad ko, si Mark ay talagang kumuha ng education at planado talagang maging guro. Bata pa naman si Mark, siguro matanda lang ako sa kanya ng ilang taon. Dahil nga medyo kabataan pa, halos kaidaran lang niya ang mga estudyante sa kolehiyong pinagtuturuan namin.
Achiever yang si Mark. Sa pagkakaalam ko, cum laude din pagkagraduate at kinuha agad magturo sa kolehiyo. May katangkaran si Mark, mga 5'8, moreno at may magandang pangangatawan. Siguro naggygym etong si Mark dahil bakat sa barong na uniporme niyang suot ang kanyang dibdib.
Maamo ang mukha ni Mark, yung bang tipong hindi nang-aaway at hindi gagawa ng masama. Mapula ang labi na parang ang sarap halikan, mahaba ang pilikmata, mapungay ang mga mata at ang tangos ng ilong. Mas lalong nakadagdag sa kanyang kakisigan ay yung mga dimples niya sa kanyang mga pisngi na lumalabas pag siya ay ngumingiti. Isama mo pa duon ang parang balahibong pusa niyang bigote.
Sus, bakit ba ang dami ko yatang alam kay Mark? Eh kasi naman, sa unang tungtong ko pa lang sa kolehiyong ito, pagkakita ko sa kanya, nakaramdam na ako ng kakaiba. Gusto ko siya.
Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o malulungkot. Eto na naman ako, pasakay ng lrt. Papasok sa school, hindi para mag-aral kung hindi para magturo. Tumatanda na ako. Bakit nga ba sa dinarami-daming propesyon, pagtuturo pa napili ko. Cum laude naman ako. He he he, nakakapagod din naman kasi magtrabaho sa opisina. Sampung taon ang ginugol ko na may boss, may amo at pinapagyaman ang iba't-ibang kumpanya, saka ko narealize, oh God I hate this life.
I have always wanted to teach. Yun nga lang hindi ako nag-education kasi sabi nga, wala daw yumaman na titser. Ewan ko lang, para kasing marami akong gusto ishare sa mga kabataan. Para kasi nuong estudyante ako, maraming mga maling ituro.
Gusto kong sabihin sa mga estudyante na, hey guys, enjoy being a student while it lasts. Habang binibigyan pa kayo ng allowance ng mga magulang nyo, ienjoy nyo dahil sa real world, kung kayo na bumubuhay sa sarili mo, ikaw na talaga bahala sa buhay mo.
Hindi na pwede kumopya sa katabi pag may pinagawang memo sa yo o di kaya ay magpagawa ng report sa Recto.
Oooooops. Biglang huminto ang tren sa pagitan ng Santolan at Katipunan. Nabasag pagmumuni-muni ko ng isang ale na nagtatatalak.
'Bastos ka! Kanina ka pa nanunulak!'
Kawawa naman yung mamang inaaway nung ale. Eto namang ale, walang patumanggang tumalak eh. Sino ba inaaway nito? Hala, ang co-teacher ko pala na hindi ko masyado kakclose. Si Prof. Bahandi. Tsk tsk, ang hirap talaga pag rush hour. Kawawa naman si Mark, sigurado ako hiyang-hiya na eto sa pinagsasabi ng ale.
Hindi ako makapagpigil, 'Ang ingay-ingay naman! Kung nasisikipan kayo, magtaxi na lang kayo!' sabi ko. Malakas ang loob ko kasi nakaupo ako at hindi ako nakikita ng nagwawalang ale.
Alam ko nabosesan ako ni Mark. Kawawa naman kasi si Mark eh, mas naaawa ako sa mga estudyante niya at baka mapagbalingan nya ngayong araw na ito ng kanyang pagkabadtrip sa ale.
Hindi katulad ko, si Mark ay talagang kumuha ng education at planado talagang maging guro. Bata pa naman si Mark, siguro matanda lang ako sa kanya ng ilang taon. Dahil nga medyo kabataan pa, halos kaidaran lang niya ang mga estudyante sa kolehiyong pinagtuturuan namin.
Achiever yang si Mark. Sa pagkakaalam ko, cum laude din pagkagraduate at kinuha agad magturo sa kolehiyo. May katangkaran si Mark, mga 5'8, moreno at may magandang pangangatawan. Siguro naggygym etong si Mark dahil bakat sa barong na uniporme niyang suot ang kanyang dibdib.
Maamo ang mukha ni Mark, yung bang tipong hindi nang-aaway at hindi gagawa ng masama. Mapula ang labi na parang ang sarap halikan, mahaba ang pilikmata, mapungay ang mga mata at ang tangos ng ilong. Mas lalong nakadagdag sa kanyang kakisigan ay yung mga dimples niya sa kanyang mga pisngi na lumalabas pag siya ay ngumingiti. Isama mo pa duon ang parang balahibong pusa niyang bigote.
Sus, bakit ba ang dami ko yatang alam kay Mark? Eh kasi naman, sa unang tungtong ko pa lang sa kolehiyong ito, pagkakita ko sa kanya, nakaramdam na ako ng kakaiba. Gusto ko siya.
Monday, September 14, 2009
LRT Ride Chapter 1
Note: This story was written while riding the LRT this morning using my Nokia E63 cellphone.
'Bastos ka! Kanina ka pa nanunulak ah! Kalalaki mong tao, bastos ka' sigaw ng isang ale.
'Di naman sinasadya. Masikip ang lrt lalo na't umaga.' sagot ng lalaking nakabangga sa ale.
'Anong masikip, kanina ka pa sa escalator. Bastos ka, walang modo. Kanina ka pa eh. Nanunulak ka eh. Para kang walang pinag-aralan!' singhal pa rin ng ale na dinig na dinig na sa buong coach ng lrt line papuntang Recto.
'Ale, iba yung nanunulak sa nabangga. Alam nyo nmang sisiksikan at masikip' katwiran ng mama.
Hindi naman papaawat ang ale. 'Kanina ka pa nanunulak eh. Kalalaki mong tao. Bastos ka. Wala kang galang sa babae.'
Ayaw pa rin magpaawat ng ale na kahit nakakaistorbo na sa ibang mga pasahero, putak pa rin ng putak. Para sa mga estudyanteng mananakay, dito na sila sa lrt nagrereview. At sa katulad ko na maagang nagigising, dito na ako sa lrt umiidlip at nagnanakaw ng tulog. Siguro ay may ilang pasahero na rin ang naiistorbo kaya may mga humihirit na.
'Kung ayaw mo mabangga, bumili ka ng tren mo!'
'Magtaxi ka na lang!'
'Bumaba ka na, ang ingay mo!'
'Guard, para daw may bababa!'
Na lalong nagpainit sa ulo ng ale.
'Mga bastos kayo! Paano kung nanay nyo ang naitulak ha!' singhal ng ale.
Sa totoo lang, wala naman makakuha ng simpatya ang ale dahil ayaw nya tumahimik. Kahit nga ang kapwa nya babae eh napapailing na lang dahil tama na nga siguro ang isang beses na pagpuna. Laha naman nagsasakripisyo kapag ganitong umaga at siksikan sa lrt.
Siguro, para matapos na lang ang pagwawala ng ale, sabi na lang ng mama.
'Eh kung naitulak ko man po kayo, pasensya na po. I'm a professor at ayaw ko po na patulan kayo.'
Pero sadya yatang pinakain ng pwet ng manok ang ale ng sanggol pa ito.
'Ayan, marunong ka naman palang humingi ng sorry. Hindi yung porke babae, pwede mo ng itulak-tulak. Kayo talagang mga lalaki, walang modo. Propesyunal na naturingan, bastos. Bastos!!!!!'
Kung ako yung lalaki, babawiin ko yung sorry ko. Ang lumalabas na bastos na dito eh yung ale na wala pa ring tigil sa pagputak na parang inahing manok na hindi makapangitlog.
'Ano ba, ang ingay ingay naman.'
'Hindi na ba titigil yan'
Inis na ang ibang mga pasahero na lalo naman nagpatindi sa pagwawala ng ale.
'Dyan kayo magagaling. Mga bastos kayong lahat! Mga walang modo. Kawawa ang mga asawa nyo, mga anak na babae, mga nanay nyo. Kalalaki nyong tao, mga bastos kayo!' gigil na gigil na yung ale.
Hay, kawawa naman yung mga estudyante ng mama, kasi I'm sure, doon niya ibubunton ang pagkasira ng araw niya dahil lamang sa siksikan sa lrt.
'Bastos ka! Kanina ka pa nanunulak ah! Kalalaki mong tao, bastos ka' sigaw ng isang ale.
'Di naman sinasadya. Masikip ang lrt lalo na't umaga.' sagot ng lalaking nakabangga sa ale.
'Anong masikip, kanina ka pa sa escalator. Bastos ka, walang modo. Kanina ka pa eh. Nanunulak ka eh. Para kang walang pinag-aralan!' singhal pa rin ng ale na dinig na dinig na sa buong coach ng lrt line papuntang Recto.
'Ale, iba yung nanunulak sa nabangga. Alam nyo nmang sisiksikan at masikip' katwiran ng mama.
Hindi naman papaawat ang ale. 'Kanina ka pa nanunulak eh. Kalalaki mong tao. Bastos ka. Wala kang galang sa babae.'
Ayaw pa rin magpaawat ng ale na kahit nakakaistorbo na sa ibang mga pasahero, putak pa rin ng putak. Para sa mga estudyanteng mananakay, dito na sila sa lrt nagrereview. At sa katulad ko na maagang nagigising, dito na ako sa lrt umiidlip at nagnanakaw ng tulog. Siguro ay may ilang pasahero na rin ang naiistorbo kaya may mga humihirit na.
'Kung ayaw mo mabangga, bumili ka ng tren mo!'
'Magtaxi ka na lang!'
'Bumaba ka na, ang ingay mo!'
'Guard, para daw may bababa!'
Na lalong nagpainit sa ulo ng ale.
'Mga bastos kayo! Paano kung nanay nyo ang naitulak ha!' singhal ng ale.
Sa totoo lang, wala naman makakuha ng simpatya ang ale dahil ayaw nya tumahimik. Kahit nga ang kapwa nya babae eh napapailing na lang dahil tama na nga siguro ang isang beses na pagpuna. Laha naman nagsasakripisyo kapag ganitong umaga at siksikan sa lrt.
Siguro, para matapos na lang ang pagwawala ng ale, sabi na lang ng mama.
'Eh kung naitulak ko man po kayo, pasensya na po. I'm a professor at ayaw ko po na patulan kayo.'
Pero sadya yatang pinakain ng pwet ng manok ang ale ng sanggol pa ito.
'Ayan, marunong ka naman palang humingi ng sorry. Hindi yung porke babae, pwede mo ng itulak-tulak. Kayo talagang mga lalaki, walang modo. Propesyunal na naturingan, bastos. Bastos!!!!!'
Kung ako yung lalaki, babawiin ko yung sorry ko. Ang lumalabas na bastos na dito eh yung ale na wala pa ring tigil sa pagputak na parang inahing manok na hindi makapangitlog.
'Ano ba, ang ingay ingay naman.'
'Hindi na ba titigil yan'
Inis na ang ibang mga pasahero na lalo naman nagpatindi sa pagwawala ng ale.
'Dyan kayo magagaling. Mga bastos kayong lahat! Mga walang modo. Kawawa ang mga asawa nyo, mga anak na babae, mga nanay nyo. Kalalaki nyong tao, mga bastos kayo!' gigil na gigil na yung ale.
Hay, kawawa naman yung mga estudyante ng mama, kasi I'm sure, doon niya ibubunton ang pagkasira ng araw niya dahil lamang sa siksikan sa lrt.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Life and Deaths
Sigh
It has been a long time since I wrote in any of my blog.
Of course the whole world knows about the deasth of Cory Aquino already. I was awake that Saturday because of stomach flu so I found out about it. I cried.
Then, last Tuesday, I heard about the death of my student Jessie. His mom dropped by the school to tell us about the death of his son.
It was so sudden. The boy was smart, friendly and good looking. He had his whole life ahead of him. He was so young.
I remember him sitting always in the front row, at the aisle so how can I forget him?
He volunteered to do a report one time at school. And when he was sick on the day of an exam, he texted me to apologize that he could not make it. And when he wsent back to school after getting well, he took the exam eventhough he was still weak.
Awwww. I would like to think that I made an impact to him.
I pray for his peaceful repose.
It has been a long time since I wrote in any of my blog.
Of course the whole world knows about the deasth of Cory Aquino already. I was awake that Saturday because of stomach flu so I found out about it. I cried.
Then, last Tuesday, I heard about the death of my student Jessie. His mom dropped by the school to tell us about the death of his son.
It was so sudden. The boy was smart, friendly and good looking. He had his whole life ahead of him. He was so young.
I remember him sitting always in the front row, at the aisle so how can I forget him?
He volunteered to do a report one time at school. And when he was sick on the day of an exam, he texted me to apologize that he could not make it. And when he wsent back to school after getting well, he took the exam eventhough he was still weak.
Awwww. I would like to think that I made an impact to him.
I pray for his peaceful repose.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
The Merry Month of May
May has always been the busiest month for me. Just recently, I just finished directing Sta. Lucia East Grand Mall's Search for Little Stars (Semis) and Search for Mrs. Sta. Lucia.
So I was stressed for the past week, what with the direction, choreography, dancers, contestants, budget (!!!!!) and at the same time account management for corporate accounts.
Geeeeez, last Saturday during Little Stars, I'm freaking. I have a fever. As soon as I got home, I fell into an exhaustive sleep only to wake up earloy for another event (Mother's Day!).
I have three Mother's Day event at three malls. Geeesh. Sa pagmamadali ko, naiwan ko pa cellphone ko (is it a sign na bumili na ako ng new phone????).
The whole morning during the dry run (galing ng mga mommy, sumayaw for the opening number, mas magaling ako, napasayaw ko sila he he he) panic mode ako kasi syempre clients are calling my cellphone eh di ko naman dala. Naihabol din naman kaya wala namang sumablay sa mga events.
I was so tired but fulfilled. My clients are satisfied and happy. I will be happy as soon as I collected he he he.
Another event to prepare for, the Grand Finals of Little Stars so I will relax this week for a little bit and regain my equilibrium.
Come June, Father's Day events. Ooooh, I am so happy to be busy.
So I was stressed for the past week, what with the direction, choreography, dancers, contestants, budget (!!!!!) and at the same time account management for corporate accounts.
Geeeeez, last Saturday during Little Stars, I'm freaking. I have a fever. As soon as I got home, I fell into an exhaustive sleep only to wake up earloy for another event (Mother's Day!).
I have three Mother's Day event at three malls. Geeesh. Sa pagmamadali ko, naiwan ko pa cellphone ko (is it a sign na bumili na ako ng new phone????).
The whole morning during the dry run (galing ng mga mommy, sumayaw for the opening number, mas magaling ako, napasayaw ko sila he he he) panic mode ako kasi syempre clients are calling my cellphone eh di ko naman dala. Naihabol din naman kaya wala namang sumablay sa mga events.
I was so tired but fulfilled. My clients are satisfied and happy. I will be happy as soon as I collected he he he.
Another event to prepare for, the Grand Finals of Little Stars so I will relax this week for a little bit and regain my equilibrium.
Come June, Father's Day events. Ooooh, I am so happy to be busy.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Easter Sunday
This Holy Week, I'm supposed to reflect about what's happening in my life, what direction I am going to take but I was distracted with lots of things... plus later today, I have three simultaneous events... geeh, I just hope everything will go all right with the other two events I am not overseeing...
Sunday, April 05, 2009
First Quarter of 2009
The first quarter of this year has come and gone, what have I accomplished so far?
I have been drifting, still unsure of what I would like to become... seems like time is running out but I am unrushed, unconcerned.
I have been drifting, still unsure of what I would like to become... seems like time is running out but I am unrushed, unconcerned.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Why Do I Blog?
My blog. Geeesh. Why do I post everything on my blog? Even the most embarassing and painful things?
Why not?
Well for one, I never really know that there would be other people reading my blog. This is for me, my personal journal. But since there are other people who took the time to read my blog and react (even vioently sometimes) so I guess I have to explain why I post what I post.
My blog is my blog. I can post whatever I want.
Someone said I should take responsibility with the things I write. Hey, I always DO. If anybody is offended with any of my postings, you are FREE not to read my blog. Gosh, I am not forcing you to read it.
Now, if you think you are misrepresented in any of my blogs, it's not my fault. My blog is a reflection of how certain people treated me. If you treat me nice, then I'll be all praises but if you do something out of the blue, then do not expect my respect in return.
There are people who spout words such as "respect" etc. but I wonder, do they really know what they are saying?
I blog because I have been USED and it is only now that I can express what I feel. Why suppress my feelings? My emotions are valid. If you are offended by what I have expressed, write your own blog and attack me there. Geeesh.
I am a legitimate, feeling individual.
Violent reactions are welcome because I don't really care. I just realized, why would I care? I care for my feelings, for myself before I care for you.
Selfish?
Not really. I have sacrificed and given other people priority over me. It's time I take care of myself coz no other will be.
Why not?
Well for one, I never really know that there would be other people reading my blog. This is for me, my personal journal. But since there are other people who took the time to read my blog and react (even vioently sometimes) so I guess I have to explain why I post what I post.
My blog is my blog. I can post whatever I want.
Someone said I should take responsibility with the things I write. Hey, I always DO. If anybody is offended with any of my postings, you are FREE not to read my blog. Gosh, I am not forcing you to read it.
Now, if you think you are misrepresented in any of my blogs, it's not my fault. My blog is a reflection of how certain people treated me. If you treat me nice, then I'll be all praises but if you do something out of the blue, then do not expect my respect in return.
There are people who spout words such as "respect" etc. but I wonder, do they really know what they are saying?
I blog because I have been USED and it is only now that I can express what I feel. Why suppress my feelings? My emotions are valid. If you are offended by what I have expressed, write your own blog and attack me there. Geeesh.
I am a legitimate, feeling individual.
Violent reactions are welcome because I don't really care. I just realized, why would I care? I care for my feelings, for myself before I care for you.
Selfish?
Not really. I have sacrificed and given other people priority over me. It's time I take care of myself coz no other will be.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Eli of the Eraser Heads
Just thought of sharing this pic with Eli Buendia when he was still with Eraserheads circa 1999 - shucks, another decade. Look how skinny I was!
Francis M & I
Yup, I know him but I doubt if he remembers me. I met him 10 years ago, in Awit Awards. So long ago.
There is one thing we have in common, together with Kuya Germs and Alicia Silverstone; we all share October 4 as our birthday. I always thought and dreamed that I will be the next famous person born on October 4.
Sigh. And now I only share my birthday with Kuya Germs and of course Alicia Silverstone.
Ei Francis M., thanks for taking a picture with me when I was just a newbie in the corporate world. Rest in peace. You have been a great man.
Peace.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Status: Single Age: 32
While many eskew writing their status online, I can only surmise that the online community is still the place to be who you want to be. Discerning the honest from the scrupolous is an ardous task so what the heck.
Another blank on the profile is the age. If not blank, some certainly are false. Heck, what's wrong with admitting your real age? Is it an embarassment that the years you leave off is worthless?
Me, I am 32 and I am proud of it. The past 32 years have been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs and like plunging down from the peak of the tallest curve or the adrenalin rush of headlong loop, oh gee, I can always throw up.
Another blank on the profile is the age. If not blank, some certainly are false. Heck, what's wrong with admitting your real age? Is it an embarassment that the years you leave off is worthless?
Me, I am 32 and I am proud of it. The past 32 years have been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs and like plunging down from the peak of the tallest curve or the adrenalin rush of headlong loop, oh gee, I can always throw up.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 01, 2009
February ushers in
I so hate myself.
January has come and gone and I didn't make a mark at all. Still, January made an impact to me. I think and I believe with what has transpired to me last month has changed me for the better.
I owe many people my appreciation and thanks for inspiring me to be a better person.
The end of January has also been full of sacrifices. It was my mother,s 60th b-day but we really weren't able to celebrate it as my father was in surgery. I was left at home to take care of my nephews and whew! It is so hard to be a "parent"!
Hope February will bring all the love I deserve he he he.
January has come and gone and I didn't make a mark at all. Still, January made an impact to me. I think and I believe with what has transpired to me last month has changed me for the better.
I owe many people my appreciation and thanks for inspiring me to be a better person.
The end of January has also been full of sacrifices. It was my mother,s 60th b-day but we really weren't able to celebrate it as my father was in surgery. I was left at home to take care of my nephews and whew! It is so hard to be a "parent"!
Hope February will bring all the love I deserve he he he.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Kung Hei Fat Choi
2009 Chinese Horoscope for people born in Dragon years: 1904, 1916, 1928, 1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000.
If your birthday is before February 4, then your astrological sign is Rabbit, not Dragon. (Verify Your Sign)
Dragon people had more good news than bad news in 2008, year of Rat. But the fortune of Dragon people in 2009 will be slide down a little bit. Dragon people will have a better health than last year. But the career luck and money luck won't be that good comparing with 2008. This is because that many Unlucky Stars appear in the same time and those Unlucky Stars bring obstacles and suppress morale on Dragon people. Fortunately, there is a Lucky Moon Star coming this year. That means someone will appear to help and support you when you are in big trouble. Thus, you have a chance to take a break while fighting against adversity.
Career: You had the Lucky Moon Star showing in career area in 2008. You could get the support from a female mentor and you could have the chance to show you talent on your job position. However, it will be different in 2009. The coming Unlucky Stars will block your career opportunity. Your job performance won't reach your goal. The your characteristics will become passive and negative. The bad reputation and dispute will come next. You need great energy, strong determination and persisting patience to get out the predicament in the year of Cow.
Money: The Lucky Moon Star should be a good sign for you money luck. But your wealth will increase or not, depending on the progress of your career or business. Since the career luck is tough this year, therefore the money luck will be limited. Another Unlucky Star is found in money area. That means you have a opportunity to earn more money, but you still have a good chance to suffer money loss. In short, your money luck in 2009 is that money comes and money goes. Since the money luck is unstable. You shouldn't try any gambling to wish wining more by a small investment. This dream won't happen in 2009.
Love: Your love fortune will be about the same to year 2008. The good news is the Lonely Star doesn't appear in 2009 anymore. If you are married, then you will spend more time with your spouse. Both of your hearts will get even closer. You should be able to maintain a happy marriage. If you are in love, your dating time will increase. You and your lover will get along well and the love relationship will be stronger and closer. You will feel harmony, happiness, sweet and warm all the time. If you are single, then you might be lonely for a while, since there is no strong love sign coming.
Health: Basically, there is no major health problem for Dragon people in 2009. You will have a safe and healthy Cow year. However, the seniors still have to pay attention in September and December. If they get sick during that time, they need more time to recover. If the young people don't not have enough sleeping at night, then they will have trouble to concentrate during the day, which will affect their performance at work. If they keep living this way, their health will deteriorate in the second half of the year.
Fortune: The luck of Dragon people in the year of Cow is not that great, but it's still fine. Although, Dragon people will encounter more trouble in career area. But they still have a helper or supporter around to protect them. As long as you focus on your job duty, make sure to deliver your task completely, avoid the argument with people, spend more time with your mentors, then your career should be fine in 2009. There is a money loss sign this year. You shouldn't expect any good money return from the investment. If you are not greedy and won't gamble, then you should be able to balance your budget in the year of the Cow.
If your birthday is before February 4, then your astrological sign is Rabbit, not Dragon. (Verify Your Sign)
Dragon people had more good news than bad news in 2008, year of Rat. But the fortune of Dragon people in 2009 will be slide down a little bit. Dragon people will have a better health than last year. But the career luck and money luck won't be that good comparing with 2008. This is because that many Unlucky Stars appear in the same time and those Unlucky Stars bring obstacles and suppress morale on Dragon people. Fortunately, there is a Lucky Moon Star coming this year. That means someone will appear to help and support you when you are in big trouble. Thus, you have a chance to take a break while fighting against adversity.
Career: You had the Lucky Moon Star showing in career area in 2008. You could get the support from a female mentor and you could have the chance to show you talent on your job position. However, it will be different in 2009. The coming Unlucky Stars will block your career opportunity. Your job performance won't reach your goal. The your characteristics will become passive and negative. The bad reputation and dispute will come next. You need great energy, strong determination and persisting patience to get out the predicament in the year of Cow.
Money: The Lucky Moon Star should be a good sign for you money luck. But your wealth will increase or not, depending on the progress of your career or business. Since the career luck is tough this year, therefore the money luck will be limited. Another Unlucky Star is found in money area. That means you have a opportunity to earn more money, but you still have a good chance to suffer money loss. In short, your money luck in 2009 is that money comes and money goes. Since the money luck is unstable. You shouldn't try any gambling to wish wining more by a small investment. This dream won't happen in 2009.
Love: Your love fortune will be about the same to year 2008. The good news is the Lonely Star doesn't appear in 2009 anymore. If you are married, then you will spend more time with your spouse. Both of your hearts will get even closer. You should be able to maintain a happy marriage. If you are in love, your dating time will increase. You and your lover will get along well and the love relationship will be stronger and closer. You will feel harmony, happiness, sweet and warm all the time. If you are single, then you might be lonely for a while, since there is no strong love sign coming.
Health: Basically, there is no major health problem for Dragon people in 2009. You will have a safe and healthy Cow year. However, the seniors still have to pay attention in September and December. If they get sick during that time, they need more time to recover. If the young people don't not have enough sleeping at night, then they will have trouble to concentrate during the day, which will affect their performance at work. If they keep living this way, their health will deteriorate in the second half of the year.
Fortune: The luck of Dragon people in the year of Cow is not that great, but it's still fine. Although, Dragon people will encounter more trouble in career area. But they still have a helper or supporter around to protect them. As long as you focus on your job duty, make sure to deliver your task completely, avoid the argument with people, spend more time with your mentors, then your career should be fine in 2009. There is a money loss sign this year. You shouldn't expect any good money return from the investment. If you are not greedy and won't gamble, then you should be able to balance your budget in the year of the Cow.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
60 lbs to go
Mmmm, I started yesterday my road to healthy toning of my body. I firmly believe that I am not fat, I just have a big belly. So, I don't really need to diet but basically start doing some exercise.
Finally, the exerciser I bought five years ago will get use. I started yesterday by being on it for 5 minutes (ei, better to start slow than kill myself!), today, I did 15 minutes. Not bad. At the end of the week, I plan to stay on it from 30 minutes to an hour.
So what did I do to force myself on the exerciser? I put it infront of the TV he he he. So while I'm pushing, at least I'm not bored.
I really need to increase my stamina. I have been going up and down overpass bridges on my way to LRT, on my way to school and I want it to be effortless. I don't want to be breathless everytime.
And I hope the aches in my joint will be gone as I build up my stamina.
Grin.
Finally, the exerciser I bought five years ago will get use. I started yesterday by being on it for 5 minutes (ei, better to start slow than kill myself!), today, I did 15 minutes. Not bad. At the end of the week, I plan to stay on it from 30 minutes to an hour.
So what did I do to force myself on the exerciser? I put it infront of the TV he he he. So while I'm pushing, at least I'm not bored.
I really need to increase my stamina. I have been going up and down overpass bridges on my way to LRT, on my way to school and I want it to be effortless. I don't want to be breathless everytime.
And I hope the aches in my joint will be gone as I build up my stamina.
Grin.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
Back To Reality
Ugh.
That's the only word I can come up with to express my getting back to work mode is. UGH!
That's the only word I can come up with to express my getting back to work mode is. UGH!
Saturday, January 03, 2009
New Year Pics
and that is why I am at my highest weight - 198 lbs! I cooked the tuna spaghetti myself.
New Year, New Goals
It's 2009.
Thank you 2008. I have learned so much and became a better person last year. But somehow, I still feel incomplete. Looking at my picture on the right (in my profile), I kept thinking, where did this person went? The person at the bottom pic is entirely different!
I have never smiled nor looked that good in picture for the past five years. Damn, I missed that Rob.
So everything will change (again!) as I resolved to change myself this year.
I titled my blog "198 lbs." because that's my weight after all the holiday binge. Golly, just 2 pounds shy from 200 lbs.
I pray that as I sit infront of my laptop a year from now, I will change again the title of my blog to something...
So, my goals for this year? LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT!
That's it.
I will not obsess in love, work or anything else but on losing weight. I'm not getting any younger...
I guess that's the first thing - acknowledge that I do need to lose weight.
There. That's my number 1 priority, all else is second to that.
Thank you 2008. I have learned so much and became a better person last year. But somehow, I still feel incomplete. Looking at my picture on the right (in my profile), I kept thinking, where did this person went? The person at the bottom pic is entirely different!
I have never smiled nor looked that good in picture for the past five years. Damn, I missed that Rob.
So everything will change (again!) as I resolved to change myself this year.
I titled my blog "198 lbs." because that's my weight after all the holiday binge. Golly, just 2 pounds shy from 200 lbs.
I pray that as I sit infront of my laptop a year from now, I will change again the title of my blog to something...
So, my goals for this year? LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT!
That's it.
I will not obsess in love, work or anything else but on losing weight. I'm not getting any younger...
I guess that's the first thing - acknowledge that I do need to lose weight.
There. That's my number 1 priority, all else is second to that.
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