Giving Up on Love

Well, not really on love but on my crush.

I only saw him last Monday, and for the past three days, I have not seen him. I resolved to ask his name the next time but I guess we are not fated to get to know each other.

I will just accept the fact that I can only admire him from a far... it's more exciting not knowing his name, there will always be the mystery.

I think that's me.

If I get to know his name, the excitement will be gone.

Just like in sex. I am more excited in the anticipation of getting laid, but once I am in the act of doing it, I am not really satisfied and would want to get it over and done with.

The same with my obsession with cell phones. I blogged that I am obsessed with Nokia E51 but after a month, I sold it coz I am not happy once I had it. The same with Nokia N70. When I can't afford expensive cellphones in the past, I pine for it. When I finally bought N70 (which is quite pricey in 2006), I am not satisfied. Now, I'm back with a much simpler phone, My Phone T22 because it's dual sim. It serves me well, but after having it for a week, I want a new one. Oh well.

Just like with work. Technically, I have no problem with my job. Imagine, I am a legitimate marketing communication manager. Legitimate in the sense that before, I can choose my title as we are not that formal in my previous work. When I was being poached and recruited, I prayed to get the job and the salary I asked for. I did.

I am thankful for the job as it pays for my credit card loans. But again, I am dissatisfied.

Maybe it is my nature. I can never settle.

So what to do?

I will be turning 32 come October 4, I'm still loss.

Ang Gusto Ko Sana

Obsess ako ngayon. Sobrang obsess ako sa Nokia E51. Eh may wifi kasi eh. Sabi ng kapatid ko na si Arlene na nasa Canda ngayon, makuntento ako sa N70. Sabi ng nanay ko, magbayad ako ng utang. He he he, alam ko naman yun eh. Obsee lng talaga ako. Ako kasi yung tipo na gusto ko ng bago, pero pag andyan na, ayaw ko na. Nakailang palit na ba ako ng cellphone? Parang sex, gusto ko yung "anticipation" of getting it pero pag nandun na, wala lang ha ha ha ha. Syempre di ko sinasabi sa mga nakasex ko yun noh eh di iniwan naman ako sa kama hi hi hi hi. In all honesty, matagal na yun, sabi ko nga nung "sariwa" pa ako. Teka, bakit ba napunta sa sex yung pinagsasabi ko he he he. Eh kasi di ko na obsession yun.

Anyway, gusto ko talaga yung Nokia E51 kasi di cia ganun kamahal. Nasa 12k lng cia, lahat ng features ng N70 PLUS WIFI. Benta ko na nga lng N70 ko para unti na lng dadagdag ko...

Kaya lang may sentimental value sa kin ang N70 ko eh... Andami kong scandal dun we he he he!